It’s Okay if Things Suck

my body is finally retiring from fight or flight ;; 

over the last two weeks, all i’ve done is sleep off my emotional baggage & buildup. all i’ve done is rest off my mental depletion.

the emotional buildup over the last six months has been the worst i’ve ever experienced. life has probably been the hardest it’s ever been. 

but i’m finally letting go. i’m learning to let go of the rope my hands have bled on, the road i’ve been dragged down.

i’m finally trusting my gut & letting the universe take over. 

my body’s build up of stress, anger, confusion, & hurt is finally fading away. i may still have unresolved feelings, but those aren’t mine to close anymore. 

i’m excited to embrace the person i want to be. over the last few months, my spirituality & belief system has settled on the power of energy, space, & manifestation of the things the world has to offer me. i’m excited to cleanse my being through belief that everything meant to be mine will be mine. everything meant for me, will find me. 

i’m excited to tap into my power & strength. i’m excited to bring the potential within me to life, to its surface. i deserve to heal; i deserve to be a new, cleansed, untouched soul. i can’t wait to get there & discover what that will look like.

you can’t force life. it has to happen the way it does for a reason. i think my favorite thing about life & healing is that they’re both nonlinear. both are meant to take you through highs & lows, meant to change you & force you to grow when you’re not choosing to yourself. 

this is your reminder to let go. trust your gut. let things be as they will be. there is purpose in everything. one day it will all make sense. 

live & let live. start over. try again. chase yourself. everything you need is within you — maybe it’s finally time to embrace that.